Sigh... Huhhhhh...

i feel used abused mistreated misunderstood depressed sad angry unwanted lost. i am lost anymore. i am spiraling into a disaster. every things feels like it's over. i just want to cry so hard sometimes. but i stop myself . i'm tired if crying anymore. it's taking a toll on me physically. all the stress. it's gonna end me i swear. i don't know what bobby thinks. i sleep on the couch. for a week now. don't know if he don't care or is trying to give me space. but what ever. i'm tired of the fights of rage. the drinking. name calling. tired of it all. i'm cold most the time. hands tremor bad anymore.
sadness...

Hair Cut

got my hair cut..

Photo Dump

Holidays !@#$%^& Suck!!!

Life sucks!!!! I miss my Mom... !!!
Holidays suck anymore, I have said that for a few years now because it's true. Easter was no different. Bobby got drunk like always. Broke some dishes, tore the bathroom door up. Called me an Ass-hole over and over.. Don't know why. He said I had an attitude???? What ever... Everything is my fault anymore...

I miss my mom...

Lunch for two growing boys..

I call it "Moms Shake-n-Bake Chicken Alfredo.. Was Tasty and the boys loved it.
4 boneless skinless chicken breast. coated in ranch and herb shake-n-bake, fried in hot oil in large skillet. 5 minutes per side. remove and cut into bite sized pieces and returned back to pan. Mean while have favorite pasta cooking. When chicken is cooked through add 1 car Ragu' Alfredo sauce and 1 cup spaghetti sauce any kind. add cooked noodles to it and toss. Serve hot and Enjoy.. :)

.. New Hair style ..

Found a new web page where you can try different hair styles.. These are a few a like..

Good Morning from The Evergreen state..
We had a BEAUTIFUL day yesterday. This is this morning's view, beautiful right now but the rain is minutes away :(
I had a decent day yesterday. Cleaned some. Grandma came and took the boys and I to Taco Bell for lunch. Was very nice..
Enjoy...